Tuesday, December 29, 2015

A Look Back at 2015: My Defining Moments

My Defining Moments from 2015
Interviews, photo shoots, and much more

And we've arrive at another year's end, a time when we might take the time at some of the defining moments that helped shaped us this year. Here are a few of my defining moments, in no particular order:

Some of My 2015 Defining Moments


1. Interviewing ACT UP photographer and activist Bill Bytsura for A&U Magazine, and learning more about the AIDS Activist Project, now to become a book. (look forward to reading the book)

2. Getting to work with award-winning filmmaker Wolfgang Busch on some fantastic projects. To learn more about some of the awards Busch has received over the year, read this article.

3. Interviewing Joseph Rivera, co-founder of Baila Society, for A&U Magazine, and also attending this year's Bailando por una Causa event, in New York City.

4. Attending Ideas City, reuniting with other members of the Undetectable Flash Collective and also with Visual AIDS.

5. Interviewing Avram Finkelstein, artist, activist, founding member of Silence = Death collective, for A&U Magazine.

6. Photographing the HIV Warriors campaign. Read more about it in A&U Magazine.

7. Attending the book launch of Art & Understanding anthology at Linda Stein's studio in Manhattan, and reuniting with the fantastic A&U team.

Art & Understanding: The Anthology. Book launch at Linda Stein's studio in NYC. Photo by Alina Oswald.
Art & Understanding: The Anthology. Book launch at Linda Stein's studio in NYC. Photo by Alina Oswald.

8. Finally deciding to try out Instagram.

9. Interviewing and photographing the fantastic young men, artists and activists, behind The Each-Other Project for A&U Magazine.

10. I got to work with activist Ron B. again, meet wonderful people, and photograph a taping of No Boundaries show at the Manhattan Neighborhood Network (MNN).

11. Had the chance to review the new documentary, Larry Kramer In Love & Anger, for A&U Magazine.

12. Writing about marriage equality for JC Independent, and also reviews for Out IN Jersey Magazine.

Marriage Proposal at NYC Pride 2015. Photo by Alina Oswald
Marriage Proposal at NYC Pride 2015. Photo by Alina Oswald
13. Celebrating marriage equality with some fantastic friends, and also running into some old friends at 2015 NYC Pride. Photographing this year's Pride, and witnessing a special wedding proposal, right in front of Stonewall Inn. Congrats Chris and Steven! :-)

14. Upgrading my photo and lighting, and also (some) computer gear.

15. Finally taking the necessary time to photograph some of my favorite subjects, and also showing that particular body of work to reviewers. Also, many thanks to my reviewers and mentors, for taking the time to comment and advise.

16. Having the chance to interview and photograph wonderful people--activists, artists, and the like--people who make a difference in their community. You can read more about that here.

17. Great times with family, friends, and other significant individuals. Those are the most precious moments!


These might be just a handful of those defining moments, those that first come to mind. There might be more.

Thank you all for stopping by! Hope you all had a fantastic year, and that you'll ring in 2016 with your families and loved ones.

I wish you Happy Holidays!!!

Happy Holidays card designed and with photos by Alina Oswald. All Rights Reserved.
Happy Holidays card designed and with photos by Alina Oswald. All Rights Reserved.



And A Happy New Year, too!

Happy New Year! card designed and with photos by Alina Oswald. All Rights Reserved.
Happy New Year! card designed and with photos by Alina Oswald. All Rights Reserved.




Alina Oswald

Monday, December 21, 2015

Year End Reasons to Be Grateful

Reasons to Be Grateful at the End of the Year

It's that time of year again--the holidays are upon us.... I find the holidays quite depressing, to tell you the  truth. They tend to bring back memories and remind me how things used to be, in another space, and time. As they flash in my mind's eyes, I catch glimpses of my granny cooking in the kitchen; Mom cleaning up the house (always and often, too); Dad bringing in the groceries; my grandpa pretending that he needs my help to put up the tree. And that's only part of it....

Time passes us by. There's no turning back, at least not until we figure out a way to travel back and forth in time, that is. But for now, time flows in only one direction. Things that used to be are no more or not quite what they used to be. I guess that's life. I'm not whining, just...contemplating. As we progress through life, things do change, and we move forward, too. But we don't forget. There are still plenty of reasons (new, and also old ones) to be thankful for. Some of them are different from what they used to be, and I guess that's just how it should be, and so...I'm glad that I still have plenty to be grateful for, and many people to thank for that.

Journeys Through Darkness
So, I've decided to mention a few reasons for being grateful and thankful this year. Here they are, in no particular order:

First and foremost, and always, I'm thankful and grateful for my wonderful family. I cannot say enough about my family. Supportive, loving, and mostly patient, they've been guiding me throughout the years. I owe them everything that I am.

My friends. You know who you are. You've seen me through my ups and downs, and you're still here. Thank you!

Special thanks to my friends who are also my fabulous models, 'vampires,' and my angels, too (I have a few :-)).

Over the years I've had the fortune to work with so many wonderful people, and I've learned a lot from them. Many thanks to you all! In particular, special thanks to my editors, especially a very special editor I've looked up to for over a decade and counting. You, Mr. C., are an inspiration!

My mentors. You know who you are...in writing, photography, and also in the activism world.

Also other good people I've met along the way.


And not to get back and thank my family twice, but thinking about it, I have to thank my mom. Again. She might not be completely aware of, although I've made it quite clear, that she's the reason why today I'm doing what I love. Her reasons for taking me to the AIDS conference, so many years ago, were quite different (the idea behind the invite was for me to go to medical school). But I'm glad things turned out the way they did.

So, maybe the lesson here is that, no matter how things change over the years, it's important to find your bliss and hold on to it. Find your passion and your inner peace.



I wish you all Happy Holidays! And a Happy New Year, too.

Alina Oswald

Friday, December 11, 2015

From the Archives: My Interview with Award-Winning Author Kergan Edwards-Stout

From the Archives: My Interview with Award-Winning Author Kergan Edwards-Stout


I met Kergan Edwards-Stout a few years ago, at the Rainbow Book Fair, in New York City. I'd 'known' him from Twitter and Facebook, but, call me old fashion, there's still nothing better than meeting one of your favorite authors face to face. Not long after that meeting in Manhattan, I got to read his (then) brand new collection of short stories, Gifts Not Yet Given, and upon finishing the read, I knew I had to talk more with the author about his books, written and yet to be written.

Here's our interview:

How does an author come up with the idea of a short story collection after having published an award-winning debut novel? I ask because many believe that short stories and such collections are not that popular nowadays...
I try not to think about whether or not a book is marketable when I write it.  I write from an emotional need, and I can’t let marketability affect my writing—I need to stay true to my impulses.  For my first book, Songs for the New Depression, it was about a cynical gay man facing death, and I knew it would be a hard sell! (laughing) Still, I had to tell the story which lingered in my soul. For this new book of short stories, Gifts Not Yet Given, the collection is tied together by holidays, from Halloween to Easter to Thanksgiving, and I tried to capture the emotional life changes that people go through.  My hope is that readers will be able to relate to the characters as they experience these “life moments.”

Your stories are quite fascinating, enlightening... therapeutic, in a way. Throughout your collection there's a feeling of renewed appreciation of one's self, of life, and what is meaningful in life--friends and family, etc.
That is exactly what I was going for!  To me, what is most interesting in life is our emotional journey.  The ups and downs we experience, and how we deal with those challenges, really define who we are.  In each story, characters suddenly find themselves faced with an unexpected choice, and their growth, or lack of growth, is very telling.  Hopefully readers will find themselves transformed in the process.

Holidays do that to most of us, bring out the best in us, I think. Gifts gives a new sense to holidays around the year. It helps us discover not only ourselves, but also the essence, the true meaning of holidays.
Personal growth can happen at any time, but I know that for many, holidays are a key time, as family and friends gather, allowing for such interactions to occur. 

You also take on a variety of topics, some more popular than others. AIDS comes to mind, but also dealing with illness, facing mortality, among many others. I admire you for doing that.
Thank you!  I know some of those issues will be very surprising for readers expecting Hallmark-card holiday stories, but I didn’t want to write what people may expect.  I wanted to write what felt authentic to me.

Why do you think writers, or other artists for that matter, don’t take on these less popular topics? Are they afraid?
For me, it comes down to, why do I write?  Many writers out there are concerned and driven by book sales, and calculate their stories to fall in line with whatever is popular or follow formulas true to a specific genre.  But I never started out wanting to be a writer.  Writing found me.  It was way to get my tangled thoughts and emotions out of my head so that I could more closely examine them.  And my stories then reflect the issues I care about.

So, are any of the stories inspired by actual events? They capture everyday life with such finesse, readers may forget the tales are fiction and feel they are reading about their own lives.
Some were definitely inspired by real life.  As you know, my debut novel was loosely based on a partner who died from AIDS in 1995, and there is a story in the collection which was inspired by his final days in the hospital.  And even the stories which are completely fictional have some personal impetus, as they burst out from my creative conscience, and largely fall in line with my world views.  Many are about being respectful of each other, being authentic to who we are, showing compassion, and the importance of discovering and claiming our own unique place in the world.

What would you like readers to take from Gifts Not Yet Given?
My hope is that readers will find themselves touched by the characters…  They are a varied bunch, from young to old, gay and straight, of different religions and ethnicities, but emotionally we are all the same, driven by the same desires and needs.  I hope people connect to our shared humanity.
Do you have any upcoming book events lined up that you may want to share? After all, the holiday season is just around the corner. Gifts would be a great...gift to be given for the holidays.

What are you working on now?
I have a memoir called Never Turn Your Back on the Tide, which is my next project.  It was based on a relationship I had where, after adopting a son together, I found out that my then-partner wasn’t at all who he’d presented himself to be.  It’s a tricky thing to write, emotionally, but it’s a story I need to tell.  It’s one of those things that when people hear it, they say, “That is so crazy—it can’t be real!”  But it is, and I lived to tell. 

With your challenges, having lost a partner to AIDS and another to deception, it sounds like you have a wealth of experiences to write from.
It’s true.  And, at the same time, my partner Russ and I have two kids, so I have little time to dwell in the past, which is a good thing.  I’m able to draw on these varied experiences when I write, but they’re easy to put aside when I hear one of the boys, calling out my name.


Kergan Edwards-Stout can be found via his website, Facebook, and Twitter. His new book, Gifts Not Yet Given, can be found at Indie Bound (Independent Book Stores), Barnes and Noble, Amazon, or at your favorite book sellers.